went to sch in the afternoon for CO. skip my lunch. reached sch's bus stop very early. smsed Corrine. told her i'll wait for her & go in together. i sat on the bus stop. listening to FM. Ni Shi Wo De Lao Po from Huang Ping Yuan. Then, i thot of the moments you sang to me last time. how deeply you love me in the past. i managed to hold back my tears. Corrine came. went in for CO. i tried my best to concentrate then. but after CO, it return back to normal. i took 913 to Causeway Point & walked to your hse to return your sis' disc. on the way, memories flashed across my mind. my mood went down. i reached your doorstep & i saw your mum. she called "Xiong! Mei!". she wanted to call your sis but out of sudden she accidentally called "Xiong!". i was wondering if you're at home aslp or are you still working. your mum also asked if i wanna go in & take a seat. i told her i'm meeting mum. she replied "oh.. perhaps another day bahs." after that, i walked back to Causeway Point. while i'm at the traffic light, there's these 2 guys on the van. they called "xiao mei!" i knew they were calling me but i purposely din turn my head. i continued walking. they too continue calling. i ignored them & walked away. i went to meet mum. had Mos' Burger for dinner. then, mummy showed me the IC she took for me. nicely made. =)
what can i do now? everyday, putting up an act for everyone to see. at night, in front of the com crying alone. i missing you every single moment. i just couldn't get my mind of you. but what can i do, huh? i can't call. neither sms. nor meet you. i'm no longer your girl. you're no longer my boy. i have no reasons to do anything else for you. when will we meet again? perhaps i'll meet you not alone but your new girl bahs. a better girl. maybe there's a minimum chance of patching. but i'll still wait. until one day you tell me that we can NEVER patch. then, that's when we end totally.
i dunno how i'll do for next year. will my result remain, become better or getting worse? can i put my personal probs aside? aix. it affects my future. anyway, i'm sorry i couldn't be the one announcing to you your 'O' level result and sharing the joy or sorrowness with you. but i sincerely hope you'll do well. getting to a poly and having a gd course. all the best. i'll love you always.
